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Later on today I will be posting my blogs about my son. Just to let everyone know.

Within this song, one can feel the narrator speaking of his friend who committed suicide, but was depressed beforehand in the first verse. The opening lines

"You must have been in a
Place so dark
You couldn't feel the light
Reachin' for you through
That stormy cloud"

states the depression, and the narrator tried to reach through the metaphorical cloud within the character's head. The character must have been in a place so dark, that there was no hope for the sun to shine through, or so he thought.

Within the same first verse, the narrator describes the attention that the character got, but not of the kind anyone would want.

"Now here we are
Gathered in our little hometown
This can't be the way
You meant to draw a crowd"

In the chorus:

Oh why, that's what I keep asking
Was there anything I could've
Said or done
Oh, I had no clue you were
Masking
A troubled soul, God only knows
What went wrong and why
You would leave the stage
In the middle of a song

The narrator continues to ask why? He had no clue of what his friend truly held deep down in his soul, and what he was hiding from everyone. The song continues on with different verses continuing to describe how the narrator still sees his friend as: the 17 year old who shined in anything he did, sports, singing on stage, and how the time passes by and yet he still keeps his friend that same 17 year old kid in high school sports, and on the stage.

While the narrator says he has no room to judge, he does have one question left. "Who told you life wasn't worth the fight?" The narrator says that whoever told him that, was wrong, that they lied to him.

"Because it's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song."

The whole story of the song goes from the narrator not knowing what was going on with his friend, while his friend hid everything dark from him. The friend is known to be this all-star athlete, amazing singer, and one who would not leave in the middle of a song. Metaphor for life, that he wouldn't give up without a fight: that he wouldn't commit suicide.

However, in life, even if you do know someone, that doesn't mean they are not prone to do these heinous crimes of life. In this song, the narrator seems to blame his friend's death on the one who lied to his friend. True, it is partly that person's fault, but it's also the one who committed the act.

I found this song while on Pandora.com, and it's such a sad song. We all have friends who go into dark places, and think they have nothing left to live for. They do, they have everything to live for. There is a specific reason for each and every person. To take your own life because you can't handle something, that's a cop out, but it's also a self-esteem issue. Some feel as though no one loves them, and no one will miss them, and that they have nothing left to do in this life.

Moral of the story: if you have friends who seem like they are in the dark, with no hope of coming out, spread some sunshine in their life. Sometimes all one needs is a genuine, caring smile that will lift them up and remind them that they are worth something, to someone. We all need someone to love, and love us back. Be that person for someone today.

There are stories that have gone around the world through e-mail about how there is a boy who gets picked on, his family doesn't seem to love him, and he goes home one afternoon planning to kill himself. With one act of kindness from someone who genuinely cares, his whole life changes, he realizes that life is still worth living, and he doesn't commit suicide. If you think that just one act, one random act of kindness doesn't change a person, you are wrong, it does change a person. It may not be a big change, but big enough to change the mind set of wanting to do something drastic like that.

Be someone's sunshine today.

Well, I am doing all right today, but my computer is messed up, so I�am not too happy about that.

I was so nervous completely flopped in the interview messed up big time. I am glad I went to this audition as I have learnt a lot from this experience. I do not think i have any chance of getting this role.

乐肥如何应对环境的剧烈变化

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我们最近搬了家，环境的改变使小猫乐肥受了巨大打击，还真没错“cats�are very territorial”, 挪了地方，乐肥绝食 4日，自闭近两周，小脸都瘦脱了像。我们理解对乐肥来说我们全家这阵折腾就好比第三次世界大战来了。.

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乐肥本来在家里是有地位的，饭桌前有它的椅子，专用洗手间，淋浴室，客房的大床成了它的御用卧榻。可是眼下看我们大家都忙着搬东西，基本上顾不上它的存在，成百个大纸箱子哪个掉下来都可以要它的命，超级伤心之余，乐肥决定实行自保政策，只喝不吃，整日躲在一个衣柜里，先保证自己生命不受威胁，同时小心地倾听外边的动静。

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没想到，这几天，当我们把东西正好了，房间和走廊都很安全了，小乐肥摇晃着出来发嗲。像啥也没发生似的照过它那公子哥的浮华生活。

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实际上，乐肥悟性极强，大环境不好，前景不明朗时，要收敛，弃享受，保生命。等大难过去了，趁大家没留神的当儿，衣柜里又钻出一条好汉。

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waiting

i never had patience

and i dont like waiting

being in a line

or waiting for assistance

for whatever the reason may be

i always wait for something

but no one waits on me

i wait to die

i wait to cry

i wait to fall asleep

im waiting on my dad

to pull his head out of his ass

but he refused to wait on me

So, I spent the night at Jenna's house and we were talking about Alex. =/ And so she made me realize how unlikely it is that I will have a class with him. I have AP�US�History instead of normal US History so he won't be in that class. Then I'm a year ahead in math so he won't be in that class either. Science and English he could be in but WHATEVER. French he won't be doing again I don't think. And even if he was he would be taking French 1 again and I'm now on French 2. He could be in my psychology class. I�don't think he will be taking Art 2. And he might be taking photography. But he won't be looping science I don't think so I don't have to worry about that.�And so I am going to optimistic and hope he won't be in any of my classes.

On another way happier note. I�went to the football game last night and Lowell kicked ass of course. (: I�had a ton of fun hanging with people I haven't talked to in FOREVER. Then after Jenna and I had a sleepover like I mentioned before. We snuck out and walked to meijer and I got carmels. And a frozen coke. Oh and because the big 24 ounce or whatever they are were on sale I got a 6 pack for like $2.50. hahaha. It was great.

And we talked Allen into have a sleepover sometime next week. And I'm fucking pumped.

Sorry for the harsh wordssss. Ahahaha.

Oh yeah and I apologize for all the swearing in the last post. I was just pissed and freaking out. But I'm good now. (:

Imma go now.

AU�REVOIR

audition tomorrow for The Boys Who Saved The World - nervous :(

what am i going to wear? hmmm�just be myself i guess :) a little makeup�and need to wear sensible shoes for travelling.� I hope i get a part even if it's just an extra, anything will do. Im just waiting for mum to come back so we can go shopping.

nervous nervous nervous